~ kusala
[ ku-sa-la: Pali term meaning wholesome, skillful, good, meritorious. ]
[ Action characterized by this quality (kusala-kamma) is bound to result (eventually) in happiness and a favorable outcome. ]


2006-01-26 - 8:21 a.m.

My Life as a Eunuch

OLD LADY. Unconscious though I was, I felt myself oppressed beneath the weight of a massive body. My eyelids flickered open to reveal, straddled upon me, a gigantic white man of modest appearance and bearing. And, as his lips met mine, he gave the most heartfelt sigh . . .

CANDIDE. A sigh?

OLD LADY. He moaned, he muttered between his teeth and then, tears streaming from his eyes they were blue he spoke.

CANDIDE. What did he say?

OLD LADY. He said: How frustrating at this moment to be a eunuch!

from libretto to Bernstein's Candide, after Voltaire*

Now, I'm obviously painting a dire and hyperbolic picture with an analogy like this, but sometimes sometimes living in Santa Barbara feels like I've been given the task of chastely guarding the seraglio.

Noli me tangere, these boys and men with their heavy-lidded eyes seem to coo, their lips nonchalantly curled into a half-sneer, not menacing but taunting.

Oh, and they're just everywhere.

It may finally be time to start making a plan to get out of this town. Or at least start looking in earnest for a huzzband.

*original text: "Thus I lay in a state of weakness and insensibility between life and death, when I felt myself pressed by something that moved up and down upon my body. This brought me to myself. I opened my eyes, and saw a pretty fair-faced man, who sighed and muttered these words between his teeth, 'O che sciagura d'essere senza coglioni!'"

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